Doing the Work
There comes a time in the affairs of man when he must take the bull by the tail and face the situation. W.C. Fields Day 26When Linda calls, I can’t believe she’s the same person who left a few days ago. There’s a new aliveness ...
Renewal
Day 21Clare calls from the Ibogaine Clinic to tell me that Linda has gotten through her first treatment with an A+. There were two doctors with her the whole time. A number of people have died while taking ibogaine and they take every ...
The Core of Life
Let’s remember why we’re here at retreat: for the amazing opportunity to really look into the core of our existence, the core of life itself that is so easy to overlook. It’s not easy to pay attention to it, because it’s not noisy and ...
Ibogaine
Day 20 As soon as I start to slow my life down, Linda begins to undergo a major shift around her health. For 12 years she has lived with Behcets Disease, an auto-immune illness similar to Lupus or MS. It leaves her in a state of almost ...
Being
Day 15 The idea of just stopping—nowhere to go, nothing to do—becomes more and more familiar. I always had a fear that if I stopped, I’d be like an old person in a nursing home, staring vacantly out into space. So far I’m not ...
Practice Run
Day 13 This retreat is just a practice run—a taste. I’m being pulled to do it longer, deeper. The real challenge for me is with people. I’m so happy to be in silence. Whenever I do talk, I find myself incredibly impatient. Ninety-nine ...
Growing Up
Day 12 Our puppy Kamalani is finally growing up. No more nipping, yelping, chewing, crying, biting, whining, tugging, jumping in the morning. I’m sitting in my chair with Kamalani lying quietly at my feet. Is he just picking up on my ...
Hibernation
Day 11All I can hear is the creaking and cracking of the bamboo swaying in the wind, the cooing of the doves, and the distant sound of someone working on their house. An airplane flies by. I’m sitting on the lanai with the laptop ...
Coming Down
Day 10 So much for all the highfalutin stuff. Most mornings I just want to sleep. Afternoons I usually have to run off to a doctor’s appointment or make calls about selling the Roadtrek . Who cares? Retreat is still happening—sitting ...
Let the Happiness Begin
Day 5What amazes me is how the very intention of retreat sets events in motion that are beyond anything I could ever have imagined—finding true peace for the first time in my life; Linda making shifts with her health; both of us ...
